My heart breaks for you. I also started drinking coffee at about 4 yrs old. My grandmother always had a pot of coffee on the stove and I wanted to drink coffee with her. She thought she could dissuade me by making me drink it straight black. No cream, no sugar, no nothing. In her mind, I’d hate the taste and would quit bugging her. NOPE!!!
I was hooked from that first sip and I’ve been drinking straight black coffee ever since — nearly 50 years. I’ve been a pretty nasty drug addiction, walked away from alcoholic beverages, but I can’t give up my coffee.